Weigh In

I'm a few pounds less than I had feared. Still a wee bit distressing! I was a stone lighter in August! Ah well, it could have been far worse considering the serious effort to eating crap I've been making!!

The Comedown

As I sit here ploughing my way through the rest of the chocolates I can feel the comedown already. Not just the comedown of Christmas and all it's fun and festivities, but the comedown of a 3 month long binge. An out of control free for all where I decided that losing weight didn't matter any more and I was happy just eating whatever took my fancy. The more chocolate, salt, fat, takeaways the better.

I'm going to weigh myself tomorrow. It's not going to be nice. I'd estimate 16.7, maybe higher. Yes folks, that's at least 1 stone 4 lbs since October. The shame of it.

There's a family wedding mid-March, I'm not going to drink until then. I'd like to try shift 2 stone by then so I can at least not feel totally hideous on the day.

More to follow.

There's hope!

Despite my all telling silence I'm doing ok.

I've managed to get everything back under control during the last two weeks. I had crept back up to 16 stone and was absolutely horrified.

I'm now at about 15.9 and hope to be down to 15 stone by Christmas (you've gotta aim high (or low, in this case) right?!)

Denial

Wow, if you're struggling at the moment and in the 'tomorrow' mindset, I urge you to read this today...

Put better than I could ever write, I think I might have just been given a gentle kick...

The Role of Denial in Weight Gain (or Regain)- Escape from Obesity

M.I.A

...or inaction more appropriately!

Oh dear, dear bloggers I've put on about 4 lbs.

I've been happily munching my way through everything and drinking my way through a brewery.

I've had a wedding, hen do, birthday party and leaving do. All are excuses for what is really me not wanting to watch what I eat, pushing it out of my mind, and getting down with some serious eating!

Fear not, today i'm back on the wagon. I have another night out on Friday but as it's with an impossibly skinny minnie I know there will be no late kebabs at least! Just wine. Lots of it most probably. Sigh.

So, I need to refocus. For so long it was my best friend's wedding coming up etc. and it was great motivation. That's been and gone and amazing it was too.

It's a tricky time of year to diet what with the nights getting darker, feeling the need to hibernate and then boozing in the run up to Christmas. But if I can lose even 1.5lb per week, i'll be 18 lbs lighter by Christmas, and 30 lbs lighter by my birthday.

Getting there

Weigh In

15 stone 5.5 lbs this morning. I thinks that's 2.5lbs lost this week.

Only 10 lbs and I'm no longer obese! Never thought I'd hear myself being happy about that when I was younger!

Wonder if I can be just 'overweight' by the 17th September?

Dodgy day

Today has all gone a bit wrong.

I skipped work as I was feeling generally unwell this morning- and still am- and that has somehow caused me to medicate with food, and lots of it!

I've had:

Branflakes

2 x roast beef, horseradish and rocket sandwiches

2 x Nature Valley double pack granola bars

Southern coated chicken burger and salad in white bun and ovens chips with full fat mayo(!)

5 x Lotus caramelised biscuits

Banana

Duo Smoothie and yoghurt lolly

That's a whooping estimated 2700 calories. This is not good folks!

I'm not sure what happened today. I think a combination of feeling off-colour (tired, achey, dizzy) and being at home bored caused me to keep wondering into the kitchen in search of something to make me feel better.

Ironically, I've been really bloated (before today's disaster) and somehow this has made me want to eat even more. It's like a self rebellion! I'm feeling huge so I eat loads. I know it's illogical and ridiculous, but there you go.

Hopefully tomorrow I can have an extra healthy food day and claw back some of this damage. And hopefully I'll stop feeling like crap too!