Absence and Excess

Well my loves, it is nearly September and I am no further along to my goal. In fact, I've put on a bit! Great.

I've been on a right free for all! Lots of chocolate, fat, junk, alcohol, you name it, I've stuffed it down my throat. Lovely wording there, sorry. There has been reason after reason- friends visiting, camping holiday, nights out etc that I have used to justify my greediness. Unfortunately I seem to have not learnt anything along this long journey. I am no wiser it seems. I still give myself the green light to completely binge, telling myself I'll sort it all out next week/ month etc. I now feel completely physically sick and I'm ready for some clean, plain food and lots of water.

So, with tomorrow being the first day after the Bank Holiday, and just a day away from a new month, it's time to restart, again (yeah, I know, I know!)

Let's see if I can be extra good for at least 4 weeks, to get into those 15 stones.

Stuck

I was actually a lot more restrained than I could have been over the weekend. Triumphs included not having cake when everyone else had some, having a sad little bowl of branflakes when eggs and bacon were on offer from mum, and not eating when I had some wine with my sister. A pat on the back for me. I did, however, eat like a "normal" person, and the scales were showing a 2 pound gain this morning! I'm hoping it'll settle down during the week and reflect my stellar behaviour. I must try to get some long walks in this week too.

I feel like I've been stuck in the 16's forever. Up to 16 stone 11 lb and back down to 16 stone, repeat ad nauseam. I really want to get into the next bracket. I'm fed up of seeing 16 stone something, roll on the 15's! Hopefully I can break it (and stay there for once) by the end of August, but I do have a camping trip with the family coming up. More self restraint will be called for.