D'oh!

Hello my loves

Seems I have gotten off to a bit of a false start!

The last 2 weeks haven't been great. Not terrible, but, well, you know how it goes.

So, we just have to keep trying right? Never give up and all that!

Tomorrow I'll be walking to and from work; only a mile there and back but every little helps. I have the week's food planned out. It's really not the weekdays I have trouble with though is it!? It's my 'it's the weekend, let's treat ourselves' mentality I have trouble with. Dominos on Friday night, homemade meatball marinara baguette yesterday, followed by a chunky kit kat! (I know!)

I have 7 weeks until a family wedding, talk about leaving it late. Right then, let's knuckle down...

3.5 lb loss

Well, I hopped on the scales yesterday morning and was back in the 15s (just)- hooray! I think that's about a 3.5 lb loss and I've not been overly strict either, just using moderation- something I've been severely lacking for a few months.

I'm not drinking this weekend and would love to go for a good long walk if possible too.

Day two done!

I'd forgotten how very hard this is!

Once you're in the swing of things... a few weeks in... it comes relatively naturally and becomes somewhat easier. But these first few days are buggers! I'm peckish and feel really blue (just the standard January blues) and I would really just love to eat a nice bar of chocolate with a cup of tea! Hmmm, satsuma anyone?!!

The thought of going to a wedding in March is spurring me on this evening. I'm amusing myself by looking at dresses.

I've seen the dress below, which I think is just so pretty! It's a little 50's in style and I think would be perfect for a spring wedding, maybe with a little blazer. It'd be rather nice to buy a size 16- let's try remember that when I'm hankering after a bar of Galaxy!

Weigh In

I'm a few pounds less than I had feared. Still a wee bit distressing! I was a stone lighter in August! Ah well, it could have been far worse considering the serious effort to eating crap I've been making!!

The Comedown

As I sit here ploughing my way through the rest of the chocolates I can feel the comedown already. Not just the comedown of Christmas and all it's fun and festivities, but the comedown of a 3 month long binge. An out of control free for all where I decided that losing weight didn't matter any more and I was happy just eating whatever took my fancy. The more chocolate, salt, fat, takeaways the better.

I'm going to weigh myself tomorrow. It's not going to be nice. I'd estimate 16.7, maybe higher. Yes folks, that's at least 1 stone 4 lbs since October. The shame of it.

There's a family wedding mid-March, I'm not going to drink until then. I'd like to try shift 2 stone by then so I can at least not feel totally hideous on the day.

More to follow.

There's hope!

Despite my all telling silence I'm doing ok.

I've managed to get everything back under control during the last two weeks. I had crept back up to 16 stone and was absolutely horrified.

I'm now at about 15.9 and hope to be down to 15 stone by Christmas (you've gotta aim high (or low, in this case) right?!)

Denial

Wow, if you're struggling at the moment and in the 'tomorrow' mindset, I urge you to read this today...

Put better than I could ever write, I think I might have just been given a gentle kick...

The Role of Denial in Weight Gain (or Regain)- Escape from Obesity